I can't think of anything to put in here so this will do.
Had work 9am-4pm. It’s nearly 2am now. Just got home from watching Confessions Of A Shopaholic with Sharina and David. AMAZING movie. I’m pretty much in LOVE with this man right here right now:
Thanks and Please. He is GORGEOUS. argh. There’s just something about him!!! haha I never EVER have celeb crushes but this dude is a total babe!
Anyways, after the movies we went and saw friends who came through from tour again. The Rise Against dudes are such sweet dudes. Last time they were here @ the TOC afterparty, we caused some serious debachuery w/ the other bands. Goodtimes.
I don’t mind living in NZ too much. Nice beaches. War-free. Free healthcare. Etc. but the downside of it is not being able to go out and not bump into ONE person you know. ALWAYS have to say HI or stop for a chat or someone will automatically think you’re an asshole when really you’re just in a hurry or just can’t be bothered. 6degree of seperation really kills me. Cafe, shops and bars here close SUPER early. If I want to grab a drink or do something during the weekday, its impossible and a real mission to find anything decent that is open. There are roadworks that happens ALL the time when it’s really unesscary. Especially when you see them digging up holes and fixing a road that is perfectly fine! Don’t fix something that is not broken! Just leave it, please.
On the way to the movies, some fuck thought that it was real cool to turn right on a red light when mine was clearly GREEN while I was going down hill at like 60-70. (In NZ you can’t turn right on a red!). He was seriously a finger space close to hitting me side ON, on my side!!! It was waaaaaay too late to slam down my breaks and I ended up pressing down my horn for like a good 5secs. ThankGOD he stopped in time! I’m seriously sooo lucky. I’m definitely blessed. I am really over people that can’t drive or follow the road safety rules. It’s fine if you want to crash and die! But don’t involve me please. If that car did hit me and even so I’m totally in the right, I still don’t want to have to deal with having no car for at least 2-3weeks and filling in stupid paperwork that wouldve been AVOIDABLE if that fuck was smart enough to STOP at the Redlight. RED means STOP. not GO asshole. Ugh. Also on the way walking back to the car, some dude didnt even stop when my green-men went off which means ITS WAS MY TIME TO CROSS THE STREET! Rude!
Anyway I’m off to bed, it’s nearly 3am and I have work in 5 hours! Awesome. Starting my graphic design course tomorrow. Very excited. Going to be designing all sorts of awesome stuff! Making pretty stuff for packaging on everything. From stationary to cups and boxes. I can’t wait to see what I’m going to come up with. Might even design some merch or posters. I can’t wait to fully master photoshop. I’m sooooo glad this holiday is coming to an end. I’ve had 4-5 months off and it’s driving me crazy!
More posts coming soon……till then……… Please drive safe ya’ll!!
“The human spirit is more powerful than any drug, and that is what needs to be nourished: with work, play, friendship, family. These are the things that matter. This is what we’d forgotten: the simplest things.”—Awakenings
In dream interpretations? Most of the time, I match up my dreams with the ‘dream dictionary’ and they sometimes describe exactly how I feel about my events in life.
Lastnight I saw a,
To see a spaceship in your dream, symbolizes your creative mind. It denotes a spiritual journey into the unknown and signal self-development and self-awareness. Alternative, the dream suggests that you may need to take on a different perspective, no matter how bizarre or unusual it may be.
To see a UFO in your dream, signifies your desires to find your spiritual purpose in life. Alternatively, it indicates that you are feeling alienated from those around you. The dream may also be a metaphor suggesting that you are a little “spacey” or have “spaced out” attitude. You need to be more grounded and come back to reality.
To see a building in ruins or damaged, indicates that your approach toward a situation or relationship is all wrong. You need to change. Your own self-image may have suffered and taken some blow.
home is where my heart is at, and my heart isn't here
I’ve been feeling a bit homesick lately. The odd occasion anxiety attack or just not feeling where I want to be. Good things take time, but if you know me, I’m the one that hates waiting. absolutely HATE. I really miss California. The realization that all my friends are there is killing me. I’m sick of fake smiles and trashtalks. I’m kinda done with dealing with aquaintances. God, please point me in the right direction and help me from stop crumbling please. just, hold. me. together.
i’m the type of girl that loves to live fast and die young kinda-deal. ya’ feel me?
Currently I have a love/hate relationship with the interweb. its not just love anymore. times have changed. Certain people do no deserve to be in my life no more. I can easily let you go but you can’t let me go cause I’m the ground beneath your feet that makes your selfesteem shoot up like your daily gossip website fix. I don’t want be anyone’s drug anymore. I love how oblivious people think I am and that I take no notice of what your digs truely means. my life does not accept the ‘part-time’ applications.
sometimes, i am so tempted to just get away from it all. one click of a button can cause such a destructive chemical reaction
I only believe in my Horoscope readings only when it tells me nice things
VIRGO - 26th March (today)
Romance, pleasure and children are at the top of your agenda today. If you’ve been longing for companionship, do some serious flirting. It’s easy to attract admirers when you’re feeling so playful. Smoothing over your relationship with a young person is also favoured. You have to admit, you can be a little bossy at times.
VIRGO - 27th March
An ordinary break or holiday planned now will turn out more life changing than you will ever believe. A new venture about to land in your lap offers setting up home miles away if you dare to accept. Why settle for the nitty gritty when your kite is trying to fly higher and all you have to do is let out the string?
Dealing with shit on a daily basis that I call life
You’re a bad mirror that beams my uglyness right back at me. someone i never intended to be. you screwed an innocent over. sometimes, i think i’m a lot safer in my head then in the real world. no one can save me. goodnight and goodfuck: http://tinyurl.com/2rfsnf
So if you own a camera, you can call yourself a photographer now?
These past couple of days have been complete kaos! i have stripped down everything on my wall from head to toe (over 200+photos) im starting over. As well as I’m going to start ignoring people who insist on making ‘plans’ with me but we both know it won’t happen cause we both live such different lives with conflicting schedules. i really don’t have time with people who are all talk and no game. I don’t want to be friends with anyone who just texts me on the odd ocassion when they ‘need’ me. i want friends who don’t lack in consistency. it gets old and tired and i don’t want to waste my time and effort on you. There are certain acceptions that i can take such as if you live on the other side of the world and i only see u when i do come and visit but we keep in touch via myspace, facebook, aim etc, or when friends come through my town on tour. Other then that, i don’t will not take on anymore excuses, period. If people on the other side of the world can make that small effort with keeping in touch reguarly, why can’t you?
Speaking of tour, I have some friends from America that are rolling through for a couple of days to hang. that should be fun.
This morning I went to the gym for my first session with my personal trainer. holy crap. I NEVER EVER sweat when I work out but not this time! It was the most INTENSE 30mins of my life. My body is gonna ache all over by tomorrow morning! Another session again tomorrow. I hope I get a 6pack after this! haha. 1 on 1 training sesh makes working out a LOT more fun rather then just treading on a treadmill for like fucking forever just to lose the equivlant number of calories as to 1 chocolate bar.
I miss LA alot. So many sweet sushi-joints uuurrrywhere! I seriously cannot ever ever get sick of sushi. i want to NOM on one of these so bad.
“When your out there and you’re being tossed back and forth by those big dark waves and you think that you’ll never feel land again, and that you can just split into a million pieces and sink down, all the way down deep, it’s the light that keeps us on course.”—~ dan in real life (lighthouse scene) (via gatekeeper) (via hit-or-miss)
These past few days I’ve been feeling really uneasy and confused. I haven’t felt so lost ever. Actually, I’ve never felt so torn and brainwrecked about anything before. Its not over a boy either! It has been a horrible few days. Ive been feeling ‘normal’. I didn’t realise I was slowly losing my glitter. Losing my shine. I started losing instead of winning. I feel like I’m Alice in Wonderland falling down the rabbit hole. I think I may have been sucked into the midst of it all and not even realise what was happening. I didnt even think there was anything wrong until i’ve been talking to a friend whom had SO many things that she wanted all happened sporadically at once. all. at. once. well in the space of a week. Im not even exaggerating. This shit is legit. Anyways, it made me realize that I have been off-track/sidetracked. I’ve been focusing on all the minus’s, instead of the plus’s. I think I’ve been feeling shitty in general because I’ve been working soo much and all these hours has taken it’s toll on me, hard.
Anyways, so I’m going to make a list. A list of things I want to achieve this year. I’m limited to nothing. I can have whatever I like, want, acheive - FACT!
I’m gonna compile a list of goals that I want to acheive. Realistic/not realistic. Seriously, ANYTHING is possible!
List coming soon………. stay tuned!!!
ps if you have twitter, please add diddy! his twits will turn your frown upside down.
At Calvin Klein Collection’s flagship store on Madison Avenue, the windows currently display pillowcases silk-screened with the names of famous duos such as Barack and Michelle, John and Yoko, Siegfried and Roy, and Thelma and Louise. Created by artist Jonathan Horowitz as part of his “Pillow Talk Cases,” the cases are actually for sale, with proceeds going to the Art Production Fund. While we’re all about donating to good causes, we think we might steal Horowitz’s idea for our own purposes and get pillowcases customized (or write on a set with a Sharpie) to correspond to our lives. Amelia’s will read, “Amelia” and “Lucca,” while mine will say, “Catherine” and “Catherine’s imaginary boyfriend.” [CasaSugar]
Is it guilty slash weird of me to feel and think about you in this kinda way? l feel ridiculously infatuated by you. You were this bright light that lit up in my closet giving me a sense of warmth and love amongst the stacks of threads. I don’t know, but do u (reader) ever feel that u just really really like someone but you can’t just tell them because everything will be just filled with awkward silences forever? There’s just something special about you. Whenever I think of you, my day/outlook on life/myself…… i just feel a million times better. I liked the fact that u looked straight into me rather then through me. you care. u actually fucking genuinely cared about me. U made me feel all warm/fuzzy. I liked the way that u would sneak a smile here and there. I felt that u were somebody who was real. U had soul. U stood out. I would continue but I’m scared to fucking death if u figured out this was about you cause i never pour my feelings out like this. I hope to God u never ever ever come across this. But who am I kidding. Secretly deep down i hope that somehow u would read this and figure out and then msg me telling me that u like me too. Just exactly how they script milliondollar love movies. the ones with the happy endings and forever and evrs. U put a stupid smile on my face each time I think of you. every time u make the rain, the storms, the shittyness go away. every single time. u never let me down. in my head anyways. its a lot safer in there i think. maybe one day you will find out. maybe u never will. but whatever you are doing, stay what you are. Nothing and no one can ever ever ever take away who YOU are. Stay you, stay true, stay real. You’ve got a good heart and i like it. x